As I write this new entry, my blog has had nearly 5100 hits since its inception in May 2010. For some reason, you all keep on reading this thing. I guess that means that you think I have something interesting/stupid/funny/(insert other self-deprecating adjective) to say. I'm honored. I know that not all of my posts have been uplifting or enlightening and not all of them have been altogether that interesting--I mean, how many times can you read about me losing or gaining 0.2lbs and getting excited about baby steps? Nevertheless, y'all have stuck with me through this process, and I hope you're along for the long ride. There's still a lot more ahead...starting with the stories and musings below...
Today, I'm happy. I'm not exactly sure why. Well, to be fair, there are some things that explain at least some portion of my cheery mood...
1. I jogged/walked a 5K today in the Jingle Bell 5K Run/Walk. Unlike the Hot Chocolate Race from a few weeks ago, I actually jogged some parts of this one. I kinda had to, given how cold it was today. Nevertheless, it felt good just to be out there. As a result of my odd jog/walk combination, I found myself slightly ahead of the slowest runners but also behind the pack of competitive runners. It was an interesting position because I could have easily slowed down even though so much lay ahead of me. Instead, I kept mentally pushing myself, even when my legs wouldn't go. The race was really a good time for self-reflecting...thinking about where I've been, where I'm going, and what I want. On the top of that list, of course, I want my hip/leg to get better. It and I have been through a lot of ups and downs, and I look forward to being able to really run again...soon, hopefully.
2. There have been some really positive things that have occurred with my friends. Without naming names, a lot of people have touched me recently. They have gone out of their way to make me feel special, through Starbucks dates or through conversations reaffirming our friendship. It sounds really sappy and perhaps even a bit cliche, but there is something to the fact that the low points in life are better when we are carried by our friends. As much as I find joy in helping others, especially my friends, it has been nice to feel surrounded by people who have taken the time to help me or to reaffirm my thoughts about myself. To those of you who have done this, I cannot tell you how thankful I really am.
On that note, I will close this post with a single thought--despite the fact that I have changed a lot (and hopefully for the better) since I started this blog, I know that I am not yet perfect. Coach Gaines, in the movie Friday Night Lights, says "[b]eing perfect is about being able to look your friends in the eye and know that you didn't let them down, because you told them the truth. And that truth is that you did everything that you could. There wasn't one more thing that you could've done." I welcome the opportunity to be better...to be a better friend, a better sister, a better daughter, and, all around, a better person. I hope that you will help me determine how to do that. In exchange, I promise to stand by you...my loyalty, my honesty, and my friendship. Deal?
To all of my law school friends using this as a study break, I hope you've enjoyed this, and I wish you all good luck on finals.
Un besito,
Doble A
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