I've been avoiding posting for a little too long, mostly because I don't want to have to memorialize what's going on right now. I'm not going to fully rehash the details of everything, but, suffice it to say, much of my world has been turned upside down. The combination of all that is going on has hardened me a little and caused me to overflow with emotions I didn't realize I even had. It's been very difficult to grasp, and, at times, I question whose life it is I'm living. On the one hand, I am so fortunate to have so many supportive and loving people in my life and to not struggle with many of the challenges others face on a daily basis. On the other hand, I am entering a new normal, both in regards to my health and my worldview. For some of you reading this, you may be wondering about the non-health-related changes that have occurred since I last posted, and, if you feel so inclined, inquire. While it's something I don't really want to delve into, I am happy to share with those who don't already know.
In the meantime, I'm trying to take each day as it comes and find the joy in little things. For example, I was quite proud to watch the Dores go 8-4 and set all kinds of school records last night. They make me proud. At the same time, it reminded me of how much easier and happier things seemed when I was in college. But, c'est la vie. As the saying goes, "this too shall pass." It's just a question of how long it takes and whether it changes me (forever).
On that note, I'm going to turn back to watching football and doing work. Not bad for a Sunday after the kind of week I've had.
-Double A
