"Feels like I've waited so long for this, I wonder if it shows..."

This will probably be my last post from Chambana until August -- I know, I'm just as sad as y'all that I won't be in the cornfields for three months...which is to say, not sad at all. I will say this, I ran a 5K in the cornfields yesterday and really enjoyed myself. It's the first time I've run outside since October, and it felt like a breath of fresh air, minus the humidity. It was also pretty crazy because in the middle of my run, it started to rain -- which was both nasty and refreshing.

After my run, I showered up and headed out to the End of the Year Party. It was great fun to see everyone, some for the last time and others for the last time until August. It's hard to believe that another year has gone by. Clearly, a lot of things have changed since school started in the fall and since I started this weight loss journey in January. Many of my classmates approached me last night to comment on the physical changes, which was a welcomed surprise. I guess I am having a hard time noticing the physical changes separate and apart from the numerical change on the scale. With the exception of breathing easier when I run and my clothing not fitting, I don't really notice much of a difference physically. From what I've read, the eyes/brain are slow to catch up with reality in terms of weight loss. I guess I still see myself as Old Alyse to some extent for that reason. Nonetheless, I felt much more like my old self last night, and I can't wait to see what it's like in the Fall. For any 3Ls reading this, I will miss you very very very much. Now, get back to studying for the bar!!!

Now, I'm just packing. Bleh. It's really not very fun seeing as I'm also getting rid of clothing that doesn't fit, which is hard. It's hard to let go of so many items with which I have such a positive association, but I know it's for the best. I chose to do this, and the consequence is that I'm going to have to let go of this silly sentimental attachment and buy new clothing for new memories. With each item I give away, I'm reaffirming my commitment to never go back. Still, it's hard.

In any case, I better get back to packing so that I can hopefully finish and then go for a quick run, especially considering that I signed up for a 5K next week. Yay.

More updates later.


Besito,
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